sean's Blue Pajamas - part three

blake -- and the fooball field...
blue pajamas -- part three continued.....


blake and me....
passed out - ah naked -- on the football field....
yeah for the first time i felt that maybe -- everything was going to be ok...
looking up at the stars...the captain of the wrestling team a sleep - ah passed out next to me...seeing stars....the moon and the clouds...flying over head...and wondering what life all about...

then i lost conciousness...

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the next morning we were awakened by the summer session's girls soccer team coming out onto the field to practice...
my pants were down around my ankles...blake was laying next to me....
empty "miller" bottles scattered around laying on the grass...
the sun glaring down -- harsh reality of the afternoon sun glaring down....
all of a sudden waking up and looking up at the coach...and then seeing blake...
his fine and beautiful cock -- hard and kinda -- lazy >>>
he had a morning hard-on...
hard in the afternoon day sun -- all warm and kinda aglow from getting fucked from the night before...
looking into his eyes and then realizing that we were not alone...
that his johnson was standing straight up in all it's glory kinda flapping in the air, and that dumb - sexy smile of his on that handsome mug that made everyone fall in love with him, his lazy light - fresh -- >>bedroom eyes, gazing into mine - as he began to grin, thinking for a second that we were still alone...
he grins and turns to kiss me--- kinda nuzzles his lips into my neck -- grins, kisses -- licks my face...>>>>>but.........then --

then realizing where we were and remembering the night before -- he reached over to kiss me....and pull his varsity jacket tighter around us...all in the same motion, his mouth about to grace mine...his lips just grazing mine, and then he turned his head....to look upward...."oh my gawwd - holy shit!"
and then whamm -- absolute panic....
"oh my god!!!!!"
we both looked up...
yep -- the female soccer coach standing over us -- with a strange grin, kinda amused, surveying Blakes hard bone and my butt, as I was laying on my stomach, without my pants on, like a strange punishing god -- there she was -- standing right over us....
my pants were about six feet away on the grass, as well as my boxers and one of my boots, the other one was still on...
"Holy shit!!!!" Mrs Cavanuagh!!" blakes says and then he looks at me -- eyes wide...
>>>>>"whats she doing here??"
blake tossed out...
then he just yelled....
"Fuck! shit-- I'am ---- outta here..."
he scrambled and jumped around and then pulled his pants on and ran away home.....
his beautiful torso, jetting onto the horizon.....
and then gone...
>>>>>>>>>>>>

the both of us -- hung-over to shit and both knowing that now, the entire school would know what happened....
blake moved fast and quick--- pulled on his pants - left his t-shirt laying there beside me and ran....away-----
fast>>>> (how many times did i sleep with that t-shirt on knowing that it once had graced his beautiful body....and missing him....kinda sad and longing for him and that night again...and what a price to pay for that innocent and real excstasy....
gone...blake - gone....
just ran away...his body a small dot on the horizon before i knew it....and then he disappeared....
>>>>>>>
i look up----and trying to move quickly to find my clothes....


"Mrs. Cavanugh...I ah, it was ah -- we -- were ah---"
i kinda fumbled for an explanation and my pants at the same time, i grabbed blake's T-shirt and held it in front of my crotch and kinda hunched over, looking into her eyes and knowing there was nothing to explain or say....but then blurted out....
"Its ah -- it's not -- it's hey -- it's not,>>>>>what it looks....like -- I swear -- really..."

I held blake's t-shirt tight -- covering my dick and trying to bend over to grab my boxers and pants...and also trying to cover my butt - ah butthole -- while doing it....
then i slipped on my boxers and bolted....my pants and other boot in my hands...
and just fucking ran -- outta sight....into the parking lot and got into my pick up truck and drove away....
ah ---->>>>>>>>>>>>>>>holy shit....

Blake....
before that night ---
how many times did i wish for and want his butt....seeing his muscled torso in the high school gym showers, see him laughing and snapping towels on his best buddy, Zach, and watching them together and wondering if they were doing "something..." -- gettin it on and who if anyone was on top or bottom??
did they kiss -- were they fuck buds or lovers...?
with each other...???
i wondered....

>>>>>>>The night before....
I could have never known when i went to get my science book from my locker and was going to study for a test that blake would be sitting in his Camero, just sitting there alone and waiting for something...
i grabbed my book from my locker was going home and then i walked over to his car...
"hey man - whats going on blake?" i asked..."what are you doing...??"
he seemed kinda sad and said he was supposed to meet his girlfriend here in the parking lot after her cheerleading practice, and that he saw her talking to Vincent calbrizzi, another wrestler, they got into a fight...maybe even broke up -- he wasn't sure....
I saw that he had a beer in bwtween his legs and took a few swigs off it and offered me one...
i said: "Sure..."
the rest of the night is kind of a blur...we drank a six pack together, we went and got another one with blake's fake ID and then we got one more after that at the gas station mini-mart and tehn we went onto the football ball...the sexy, bright full moon above, and blake all drunk and we were laughing about certain teachers and howling over shit that the gym coach said when he's trying to be all rough and hard-core...and blake was imitating the coach and stuff like that, and then i swear the next thing i know blake was running around with his shirt off, and then his pants trying to climb the football field goal, bare-ass naked...well he had on his jockstrap, but nothing else....
then he got half-way up there burning his thighs trying and then fell, and i almost like, caught him and i was laughing too, and then he fell and then we both looked at each other and then at the same time...boom, we kissed: he did it and i did it too, our mouths just met and then kissing...and then blake got a hard bone and i never sucked off a guy but i went right down on his fine, sturdy, kinda big one...
i had seen it in the showers, like i told you and once kinda half hard, but never like this, under the moon and totally hard and him kissing me - and then kind of pushing my head back down, like saying: "yeah suck it more..." and "it never felt like this before when julie did it...oh god yeah -- lick my balls..." and it just all happened...
he turned me over and started fucking me....and then he asked me to fuck him...and all the while he was talking saying stuff like:
"you ever fuck guys before??"
"you ever suck a guys cock before...??"
"do you like that ??"
"will you fuck me??"
"you have such nice eyes..."
and then kissing again and then i dont remember really...
we just passed after after fucking and laughing and kissing some more...the last thing i remember was the low clouds moving swiftly over head and the moon shinning through them and the warmth of the night...and the way blake smelled and kissed and fucked...
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"Ah MRS. CAVANUGH....oh my god-- we were just fucking around..i mean fooling and around and we had some beers...thats all!" i said and then ran away...
she was shaking her head from side to side and and kind of looked like she really didn't care - she just wanted me off the field...
i sat in the high school parking lot....for about an hour: now fully clothed again...trying to think of some stroy or something...if i was confronted by a teacher or any of my buds at school or my parents...
blake was gone...man. my one chance, and i got what i wanted but would never have it again...or so i thought...
>>>>>>>>>sitting there in my truck...alone and then crying...
i just had like -- my honeymoon or something: something beautiful with blake and real and just natural....
and now i was gonna get a divorce...
I knew i'd never really, ever talk to blake again....
we both knew that we were toast...totally found out...that everyone would say that:
we were "butt-fucking fags...."

our lives would never be the same...
the night before everything seemed so natural, the way it happened, just two guys hanging out -- laughing, having fun - cracking jokes under the summer moon, and playin around and then ah well we fucked, and it was cool and i liked it...yeah >>>>>so much
and i think blake did too -
and we kissed and it was awesome and then we just fell a sleep in each other's arms, like totally normal...but then, reality, of course, yeah things would never be the same....
and they weren't...
blake was a senior and -- and hed be going up to USC soon and leave me with one year left to face the music...
i know now that my heart was broken...kind of had the brass ring in my hand -- and then -- it was snatched away...

i went hone and showered and then realized that I'd be late for work...to work at my dad's construction company...just to take off the edge, yeah i bought a six pack and drank it on the way to work....
blakes kisses kinda still fresh on my lips and all and remembering the way he moved and looked and asked me to fuck him, kind of like he wasnt sure if id do it or not, and yeah , he took it like a champ and really seemed to dig it, and just told me what to do...and kissed me when i stared fucking him...and all this, blake kinda asking for my cock and fucking another guy for the first time - let alone kissing, well the whole thing kinda seemed unreal and beautiful and dark and forbidden and confusing and wonderful....
i pulled into the construction yard with a buzz on...and my cousin jake walked over to my truck...
"Your late - shit head...." he nodded into the pick up window...
"yeah - I know...i'll be in -- in a minute..."